Humanistic

I'm trying to be humanistic, well at least, think that way. For you psych kids, you know what I'm talking about. I used to be always optimistic and happy, but somewhere along the way, I changed. And I don't like who I've become..always sad and depressed about something, not looking forward to things, complaining all the time, not laughing as much. I think it hit me last week after homecoming when one of my bosses told me that I was "wavering." I wasn't in a good mood and I felt like crying. But I'm changing that now. Today, I was much more myself and everyone was glad to see me that way. I was back in my "teesa mood" as silly as that sounds.

I don't want to lose that about myself. I love the way I was always happy last year, even last summer..and even this past summer. I was looking over my journal entries yet again, and they used to begin with.."today was such a great day.." and I would fill up pages on just one day, even if I didn't do all that much. Now, it's just "today was okay.." I mean, homecoming took up a mere paragraph. That's pretty sad. So, I will try to be happier, smile and laugh more, give more hugs and kisses.

Oh, I've also realized Jumanji is like the best movie ever. Haha, I'm such a kid. It's so much fun watching it with your parents. That's what I did last night, and it was awesome.

Oh, and Gattaca is also very awesome. Thanks Ro!

Homecoming.

Yeah, so I just got home..it's about 2:35 am, and I can't sleep even though I have work in the morning. So many thoughts are rushing in my mind, so why not blog?

Homecoming week: I actually dressed up for each day and it was nice to see everyone else in the school spirit. I got to shake it each morning for the senior dance. It made me really mad that they messed up the whole thing Friday afternoon, but at least we got to perform.
The football game was nice, just the part of being there with everyone I love. The game itself was disappointing as usual, but what can you do? We had Village Inn afterwards, so it turned out okay :)
Homecoming dance: Eh. Not so great. I didn't have fun. Dinner and bowling until 2 am was fun, but the dance was definitely not what I expected. I didn't have high expectations, but let's just say I had more fun dancing last year. But everyone looked gorgeous!

SO..that's about it. I'm not feeling like I should be sad that this is my last year of high school. I'm seriously sick of it all. I cannot wait until I go off to college.

Fun times

So school has started, and it's going pretty okay. With work and French 6, it's all okay. Although, I need my Ro, Rabs, and Triv.

I had a blast volunteering at the Denver Public Library. I will seriously remember that experience for a long time to come. It was the place where every kind of person could come together and share one passion..reading. And that's why that was my topic for T.O.K. on our O.P.A.

I also had a great time watching The Brothers Grimm. Heath Ledger and Wentworth Miller (although he wasn't in the movie) stole my heart <3. Congratulations to Rohini and Anandi for getting their licenses!!

I read Lauren's post, and it reminded me of the Robert Frost poem, which reminded me of The Outsiders, which reminded me of lots of good memories...so here it is.

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.


I love that poem.